the fence

I'm sitting here at work and thinking about my struggle sometimes to walk on the line, and not get to far off in either direction. In the past I've had the habit of going completely in the wrong direction because of love, lust, and a variety of ohter things. And on the other side is not taking any action at all when it comes to any given situation. Not to make the obvious Johnny Cash connection, but on my cell phone screen I have a small black shaded heart, and the phrase "Walk the Line."

And I try to live by this as best I can. Let's say on one side of the fence, or the line you walk...there is in-activity, and on the other side is too much activity. This concept can be best explained by the concept of yin and yang I think. I feel like in my life their is an obvious lack of balance, and I'm sick of going to far in one direction, and then spend months trying to just get back to the starting the point. And it makes me tired. I wish really to be able to accept all the parts of myself, from the quiet, anti-social weirdo on one side, and on to the extreme, edgy, hard living person on the other side.

The more time I think and grow, and learn, I keep thinking there has to be a middle ground to all of this. And I hope in time I will find this.

This is a random blog at work without much deep thinking, forgive me please.